For my love of Tea.

Just had to share these. Adorable:







You can buy the white ones here: http://www.bitsandpieces.com/product.asp_Q_pn_E_42846 Not sure where to get those colored ones, yet.... But, I'm determined to find out.

Sofasssss.

Since I've been craving a sofa, I thought I scope some out online. Check out a few I love.









I really want something deep and super cushion-y and soft. But, of course super cute too. I want a couch like my Girlfriend Lisa's. It's heavenly!

I found this site that I think is pretty rad: http://www.bemz.com/index.php/page/shop/prod_id/2/model_id/41/pattern_id/13/#
(if It was something I could afford.) They make slipcovers for various Ikea sofas. Such a great idea, so many more options!!!

Someday.

Get rich quick!

Unemployment blows. BLOWS!
I just realized I'm officially short on rent. I fuckkkked up.
I'm so annoyed I have not received one unemployment check yet. If I had just ONE, I'd be fine for the month. I'm kind of freaking out.
SO, the plan is. Don't drive anywhere! Sell some shit on Ebay. Hope Comcast doesn't shut me off because I need internet to apply for work. And sit here and wait for a Check! I hate this.
I know it will pass, and things will work out. But in this moment, unemployment sucks!

Where money is not concerned, life is really great. I'm really happy today, after a couple days of being somewhat tense and spastic. I'm very much at peace, and looking forward to things coming my way! West, that is.

I hate you 3am.

I need someone to be awake.

I've been awesome at growing my nails out lately. Tonight, they keep finding their way into my mouth, ready to be chewed right the eff off.

Time for attempting sleep. Can't wait for a wake up call.

Krust=Crazy.

A friend in need.

I want a couch. Like a REAL big comfy sofa, preferably with an armchair and ottoman to accompany it. I gave up my futon, which I did love, but it had to be done. It wasn't cutting it as living room furniture anymore.

Jeremy is in town again! So, I am getting to hang around with him a lot this week. It's nice to have him here. But, really, it does just make me sad, because I know he will soon be gone once again. And, I still kind of hate that. Whatever. I'm trying to be happy. woohoo!

No job yet. I applied for a bunch today though. So, I'm really hoping something happens. I've decided that I think I want to work in SF, so I will have an excuse to move there. I think I'm in need of a change. Like something bigger than just a new job. I kind of really want to live on my own. I dunno. Maybe it will pass. I'm just not happy with my current living situation. eh.

oh, I think I might need therapy. I really need a job so I can get some insurance asap.

Hooray for Brandt's

So, our dinner gathering tonight was great.
It was awkward I suppose at times, just because we were meeting close family for the first time, that ave lived about 7 miles away my whole life! But everyone was soooo inviting and friendly, and FAMILY!!! I'm grateful to my Aunt Linda for putting this together with my Dad.
I talked the longest to my Aunt Linda, who at one point told me how much like I act like my Mom did in her early 30's. I don't always see it in myself. I see the things I know of her in my Sister a LOT. But I guess it could be because I didn't know my mother at that age, obviously. So, that was really special to hear. My Mom must have been wayyyy cool in her 30's! hahahahaha.
I loved every minute. I actually almost didn't want to leave!
Before we left, one of my cousins wives, got a sheet of paper out and passed it around for everyone to put their email addresses and phone numbers on and then made copies for everyone.
Easily, the BEST Christmas present I will get this year.

I'm happy tonight.

I LOVE my family. Family I've known all my life, and family I met just few short hours ago. It's good to be a Brandt.

I'm ready.

So, I'm sitting home waiting for my sister so we can go to this party at my uncles. which now I'm told is NOT a Birthday party. But some sort of surprise...? I have no idea. I'm really excited and hope it gets me pepped up for the days ahead because I'm not feeling my usual Christmas excitement this year. It's my favorite holiday usually. I miss Christmas breakfast with my Mom and Dad, or opening gifts early. I miss getting excited over silly things. Sarah and I kind of kept it alive last year. But, this year is different. I guess I didn't try, because I feel like I just didn't care to. Which is really sad when I think about it. I wish I had a home to go back to for the holidays, and could spend the whole day with my family. I'm so jealous of everyone who does. Just another thing I took for granted. Kind of think I'll sleep through the day until it's time for dinner, when I get to see everyone I love.

Sorry for the depressing rant.

Why so glum?

It's 3am, and I'm still awake! boo.
Unemployment is a tad depressing. Only because I'm not very good at getting myself out of bed before noon if I don't have a reason to :/ So, I stay up wayyyy too late and don't always have buddies to talk to.

I'm hoping I'll follow thorough with a few of the projects I have lined up after the Christmas hoopla this week.
1) working on a few more mini skirts. My first attempt was a mess, but #2 was at least wearable. Though it's pretty much done for now... It was a bit "delicate", I am not. :)
2)Living room makeover. Mainly I just want to get rid of like more than half of our storage (but, I have to do it behind Sarah's back, I'm fnding)
3)keep cooking! I've been trying.
4)GYM! before I have to cancel the membership :( due to being jobless.

I suppose these could qualify as New Years resolutions, as well.

The week ahead should be fun! I'm really excited for everything. Tomorrow night (well, tonight now!) I am going with the rest of the Brandt clan to see the OTHER BRANDT clan! (and, like Noah once said, The more Brandt's, the better.) It's very exciting, because sadly, I barely know them. It's my Father's brother whose married and apparently has 3 children (I thought there were 2). When I was young or possibly even before I was born they had a falling out and never spoke even though they lived right here the bay area all my life. I have met my uncle himself at least twice in the past 10 years. My mother had gotten in touch with him after my parents separated and I went to see him with her once, and he was at my mother's memorial service. MY father and his brother have reconciled in the recent years but he was living in Washington or something. Anyhow, his wife (my aunt?) invited us to his Surprise birthday party tomorrow night, and I'm super thrilled to see and meet these Brandt's. I Love family. I can't wait to have more!

I kinda secretly hope this week and the next go by fast. The first week of January is looking good so far. I get my hair done! I always put it off long enough to where it's a real treat when it's time. AND, California gets one of my favorite residents back.
All of January promises great things actually. More tattoo work possibly, and most importantly, a NEW Brandt.

Alright back to Three's Company! I wish I could find Christmas Vacation! I love Clarke Griswald.

Why not?

I guess the appropriate question is, why? (Because I know I'm not getting any of it.) And the answer is I'm bored, I like lists and shopping.
This is kind of my Ultimate wish list, I added some crazy stuff for fun!

#1 THESE:
http://www.agentprovocateur.com/cendrillon.html
I fell in love when I saw them worn by one of cocktail waitresses at Hustler. To die for.

#2:
Because they are over the KNEE! I am dying for over the knee boots...
http://store.alloy.com/item.do?categoryID=39&itemID=49036&sizeFilter=&colorFilter=&brandFilter=#

#3:
Self Explanatory. (Also wanted: Top #5)
http://lochers.com/collection13.html
I LOVE this designer. Emily and I bought a few shirts from her this year and it was a total dream come true, since we've been drooling over this website for much too long.

#4: The Unattainable 2:

Chanel Camelia ring and Repetto purple satin flats (both older styles, as far as I know, not available at all anymore) Not that I could afford them if they were! A girl can dream...

#5: To go here!
Hellllloooooooooo, trampolines AND Dodgeball. Sign me up!
http://www.jumpskyhigh.com/index.asp


Also:
-Navigation for my car, or a phone with good navigation
-A trip to Tahoe or somewhere with snow to go Snowboarding.
-A place to live that I actually like, that isn't a but load of money.
-A Job

This is it, don't get scared now.

I think I'm slightly in denial that I will have no job in just few short hours. I really wanted to get to work this morning and have everything be back the way it was like a month and a half ago. I want everyone to be here plugging away or slacking off, whatever we did best. I guess I could actually do without a lot of those people, but I'd suck it up to get to work with the ones I did enjoy. Oh well, this is life. I an only hope that things will get better now.