I'm drooling.

Possibly found my dream house. I love the way this woman decorated her house in Chicago. So many ideas, I'm inspired by for my next place....

My favorites parts are this family room that's just there off the kitchen with that black and white wallpaper! I love the art collage on the wall with the plates and the paintings. Such a cute layout.
And the Master Bedroom!

I love all the COLORS!!! with the Black and white. I'm itching to redecorate so badly right now! Holy shit. But, I won't waste it here. I want to wait until I move, when it will be more worth it. I'm not too stoked on my place at the moment enough to spend time doing rad stuff, just to have to out it back later. Next time, I'm going all out on the decorating.

Check out her Shower. So jealous. Witch. That is my DREAM shower. For so many reasons. I HATE Shower over bathtubs. blah. I HATE shower curtains. And I fear slipping on the stuff baths and showers are usually lined with. This shower solves EVERY one of those issues. amazing, AND it has multiple shower heads. 2 thumbs way up!

http://gallery.apartmenttherapy.com/photo/020509beth

Love.

So stoked.
Sarah bought me a ticket to see The Lovemakers on Friday night, because she's AMAZING! And today Stephanie confirmed that she has purchased a ticket as well and will be joining us.
The Lovemakers at The Blank Club a few years ago, is still one of the best shows I've been to. I really love The Blank Club for shows, you get to be so close. And The Lovemakers are SOOOooooo much fun to watch perform, especially when Lisa and Scott make out, or when Scott dances!!!! ACGH!!!!! I am beyond stoked right now, I'm glad it's only a day away. Time to start thinking about a fun outfit.


So happy for me right now.

I need you so much closer.

Listening to Death Cab right now is making me gloomy... but, I really have no reason to be. I wish I
could make things simpler and time pass more quickly.


"And the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row,
it seems farther than ever before
I need you so much closer...
So come on, come on..."

bummed out.

The following scenario is not helping my self confidence for the day ahead tomorrow. ACH!
I just tried to put on my EC Star "Love Me" jeans to possibly wear tomorrow, and my giant ass hips or something else huge, ripped them. I almost started crying right then and there.
I LOVE these jeans. The are all BLACK, pegged, slightly cropped with heart shaped pockets on the bum. I never wear them for fear they'll get ruined... BINGO!
Point is. I need to lose some chunk. And get a job, so I can afford to take my jeans to get fixed.

Poo.

For my love of Tea.

Just had to share these. Adorable:







You can buy the white ones here: http://www.bitsandpieces.com/product.asp_Q_pn_E_42846 Not sure where to get those colored ones, yet.... But, I'm determined to find out.

Sofasssss.

Since I've been craving a sofa, I thought I scope some out online. Check out a few I love.









I really want something deep and super cushion-y and soft. But, of course super cute too. I want a couch like my Girlfriend Lisa's. It's heavenly!

I found this site that I think is pretty rad: http://www.bemz.com/index.php/page/shop/prod_id/2/model_id/41/pattern_id/13/#
(if It was something I could afford.) They make slipcovers for various Ikea sofas. Such a great idea, so many more options!!!

Someday.

Get rich quick!

Unemployment blows. BLOWS!
I just realized I'm officially short on rent. I fuckkkked up.
I'm so annoyed I have not received one unemployment check yet. If I had just ONE, I'd be fine for the month. I'm kind of freaking out.
SO, the plan is. Don't drive anywhere! Sell some shit on Ebay. Hope Comcast doesn't shut me off because I need internet to apply for work. And sit here and wait for a Check! I hate this.
I know it will pass, and things will work out. But in this moment, unemployment sucks!

Where money is not concerned, life is really great. I'm really happy today, after a couple days of being somewhat tense and spastic. I'm very much at peace, and looking forward to things coming my way! West, that is.

I hate you 3am.

I need someone to be awake.

I've been awesome at growing my nails out lately. Tonight, they keep finding their way into my mouth, ready to be chewed right the eff off.

Time for attempting sleep. Can't wait for a wake up call.

Krust=Crazy.

A friend in need.

I want a couch. Like a REAL big comfy sofa, preferably with an armchair and ottoman to accompany it. I gave up my futon, which I did love, but it had to be done. It wasn't cutting it as living room furniture anymore.

Jeremy is in town again! So, I am getting to hang around with him a lot this week. It's nice to have him here. But, really, it does just make me sad, because I know he will soon be gone once again. And, I still kind of hate that. Whatever. I'm trying to be happy. woohoo!

No job yet. I applied for a bunch today though. So, I'm really hoping something happens. I've decided that I think I want to work in SF, so I will have an excuse to move there. I think I'm in need of a change. Like something bigger than just a new job. I kind of really want to live on my own. I dunno. Maybe it will pass. I'm just not happy with my current living situation. eh.

oh, I think I might need therapy. I really need a job so I can get some insurance asap.

Hooray for Brandt's

So, our dinner gathering tonight was great.
It was awkward I suppose at times, just because we were meeting close family for the first time, that ave lived about 7 miles away my whole life! But everyone was soooo inviting and friendly, and FAMILY!!! I'm grateful to my Aunt Linda for putting this together with my Dad.
I talked the longest to my Aunt Linda, who at one point told me how much like I act like my Mom did in her early 30's. I don't always see it in myself. I see the things I know of her in my Sister a LOT. But I guess it could be because I didn't know my mother at that age, obviously. So, that was really special to hear. My Mom must have been wayyyy cool in her 30's! hahahahaha.
I loved every minute. I actually almost didn't want to leave!
Before we left, one of my cousins wives, got a sheet of paper out and passed it around for everyone to put their email addresses and phone numbers on and then made copies for everyone.
Easily, the BEST Christmas present I will get this year.

I'm happy tonight.

I LOVE my family. Family I've known all my life, and family I met just few short hours ago. It's good to be a Brandt.