Friday, November 14, 2008

Could it be that everything goes round by chance.

I fully intend to just the shit out of my bike allllll weekend. I haven't been doing nearly enough physical activity since Softball ended and I'm starting to NOTICE it! boo. It could just be PMS. But, that's usually my answer to all my complaints :) Don't judge me, it's totally fair.

Being at work right now is weird, and borders full on sucking, at some times :/
Today is actually a bit better despite one thing I'm really sad about.
A lot of faces that I loved seeing everyday are gone and I miss them, and I know it won't be long until all the rest of those face are gone too, along with mine! Ever since Softball, we've totally created this little family, that I LOVE. I just hope it lasts despite the fact that we will no longer be together 40 hours a week. These are some of the best people around.
Other than that, the actual work part is mostly easy for me right now... however, It's really just depressing to be killing something we've all worked so hard on while we've been working here, some longer than others. I do have hope that the company will be able to bounce back form this and do something with the products they do have. Then it might not feel like a total waste, even if I don't profit from it.
I've been so proud of what I did here and to be working for this company and had the opportunities I had. I know that I was good at my job, sometimes excellent, sorry to brag. But this was a perfect place for me. I've been lucky enough to have had some great leaders as well as coworkers.
I had lunch with an old boss yesterday, who I LOVED, who has agreed to be a reference for me. It was so nice to get see and talk to her again since her leaving was very abrupt and I never had the chance to even say goodbye. She was always very motivating, and talking to her yesterday helped me put some things into perspective. She told me how proud she was of me and how much she's seen me grow while I've been working at IMMI. Which made me feel really great. Because I see it too, so it's nice to know someone else has noticed. I've grown a tremendous amount in many different ways since working here. I've learned things and DONE things. I am more confident in myself, and more aware of what I am capable of achieving.
With that being said. My plan is to see how possible it will be to get my ass back into school for a short period of time, BUT long enough to get myself a degree or certification. So, wish me luck on deciding what the actual goal is and area of study will be, as I have few things still to sort out.

Oh, and P.S. Tonight was supposed to be the night I flew to New York for my Vacation!!! as if I'm not a bummer enough as it is. I still have my stacks of a few outfits I had picked out folded on the floor in my room ready to pack. HA! It's really sad. I had fun outfits all planned out, and I bought a new fucking coat. I canceled my flight Friday night after talking to Jeremy about what had happened. If I took the trip still, I would not have gotten to stay and work and get paid that extra money that now, that I am potentially jobless, I will need. It's just sad. I was excited to get out of here for a bit. I haven't gone away at all this year yet. I was excited to see Jeremy again, because it's a very rare occurrence at this point.

Alright enough of my bologna!
I hope everyone else is excellent. SUNSHINE PUPPIES and RAINBOWS!