Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Hooray for Brandt's

So, our dinner gathering tonight was great.
It was awkward I suppose at times, just because we were meeting close family for the first time, that ave lived about 7 miles away my whole life! But everyone was soooo inviting and friendly, and FAMILY!!! I'm grateful to my Aunt Linda for putting this together with my Dad.
I talked the longest to my Aunt Linda, who at one point told me how much like I act like my Mom did in her early 30's. I don't always see it in myself. I see the things I know of her in my Sister a LOT. But I guess it could be because I didn't know my mother at that age, obviously. So, that was really special to hear. My Mom must have been wayyyy cool in her 30's! hahahahaha.
I loved every minute. I actually almost didn't want to leave!
Before we left, one of my cousins wives, got a sheet of paper out and passed it around for everyone to put their email addresses and phone numbers on and then made copies for everyone.
Easily, the BEST Christmas present I will get this year.

I'm happy tonight.

I LOVE my family. Family I've known all my life, and family I met just few short hours ago. It's good to be a Brandt.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

I'm ready.

So, I'm sitting home waiting for my sister so we can go to this party at my uncles. which now I'm told is NOT a Birthday party. But some sort of surprise...? I have no idea. I'm really excited and hope it gets me pepped up for the days ahead because I'm not feeling my usual Christmas excitement this year. It's my favorite holiday usually. I miss Christmas breakfast with my Mom and Dad, or opening gifts early. I miss getting excited over silly things. Sarah and I kind of kept it alive last year. But, this year is different. I guess I didn't try, because I feel like I just didn't care to. Which is really sad when I think about it. I wish I had a home to go back to for the holidays, and could spend the whole day with my family. I'm so jealous of everyone who does. Just another thing I took for granted. Kind of think I'll sleep through the day until it's time for dinner, when I get to see everyone I love.

Sorry for the depressing rant.

Why so glum?

It's 3am, and I'm still awake! boo.
Unemployment is a tad depressing. Only because I'm not very good at getting myself out of bed before noon if I don't have a reason to :/ So, I stay up wayyyy too late and don't always have buddies to talk to.

I'm hoping I'll follow thorough with a few of the projects I have lined up after the Christmas hoopla this week.
1) working on a few more mini skirts. My first attempt was a mess, but #2 was at least wearable. Though it's pretty much done for now... It was a bit "delicate", I am not. :)
2)Living room makeover. Mainly I just want to get rid of like more than half of our storage (but, I have to do it behind Sarah's back, I'm fnding)
3)keep cooking! I've been trying.
4)GYM! before I have to cancel the membership :( due to being jobless.

I suppose these could qualify as New Years resolutions, as well.

The week ahead should be fun! I'm really excited for everything. Tomorrow night (well, tonight now!) I am going with the rest of the Brandt clan to see the OTHER BRANDT clan! (and, like Noah once said, The more Brandt's, the better.) It's very exciting, because sadly, I barely know them. It's my Father's brother whose married and apparently has 3 children (I thought there were 2). When I was young or possibly even before I was born they had a falling out and never spoke even though they lived right here the bay area all my life. I have met my uncle himself at least twice in the past 10 years. My mother had gotten in touch with him after my parents separated and I went to see him with her once, and he was at my mother's memorial service. MY father and his brother have reconciled in the recent years but he was living in Washington or something. Anyhow, his wife (my aunt?) invited us to his Surprise birthday party tomorrow night, and I'm super thrilled to see and meet these Brandt's. I Love family. I can't wait to have more!

I kinda secretly hope this week and the next go by fast. The first week of January is looking good so far. I get my hair done! I always put it off long enough to where it's a real treat when it's time. AND, California gets one of my favorite residents back.
All of January promises great things actually. More tattoo work possibly, and most importantly, a NEW Brandt.

Alright back to Three's Company! I wish I could find Christmas Vacation! I love Clarke Griswald.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Why not?

I guess the appropriate question is, why? (Because I know I'm not getting any of it.) And the answer is I'm bored, I like lists and shopping.
This is kind of my Ultimate wish list, I added some crazy stuff for fun!

I fell in love when I saw them worn by one of cocktail waitresses at Hustler. To die for.

Because they are over the KNEE! I am dying for over the knee boots...

Self Explanatory. (Also wanted: Top #5)
I LOVE this designer. Emily and I bought a few shirts from her this year and it was a total dream come true, since we've been drooling over this website for much too long.

#4: The Unattainable 2:

Chanel Camelia ring and Repetto purple satin flats (both older styles, as far as I know, not available at all anymore) Not that I could afford them if they were! A girl can dream...

#5: To go here!
Hellllloooooooooo, trampolines AND Dodgeball. Sign me up!

-Navigation for my car, or a phone with good navigation
-A trip to Tahoe or somewhere with snow to go Snowboarding.
-A place to live that I actually like, that isn't a but load of money.
-A Job

Monday, December 8, 2008

This is it, don't get scared now.

I think I'm slightly in denial that I will have no job in just few short hours. I really wanted to get to work this morning and have everything be back the way it was like a month and a half ago. I want everyone to be here plugging away or slacking off, whatever we did best. I guess I could actually do without a lot of those people, but I'd suck it up to get to work with the ones I did enjoy. Oh well, this is life. I an only hope that things will get better now.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Just because I'm losing, doesn't mean I'm lost.

Okay, so I am a little loopy, I guess. No one hates me. Or at least they don't anymore. I was just being overly sensitive, what else is new? We are down to less than 3 days left here and counting... It's really slow going (because there is almost NO work), so I've been getting off around 3ish the past few days.

I got myself back into the Gym! FINALLY. I have been putting it off for who knows why. I was soooo good last year about it, then I got my bike, and then Softball season came, and I figured I was fine since I was doing other alternative physical activity. WEllll, I can totally notice the affects of not doing shit since softball ended. Stupid Krust. Anyhow, I'm going to take my FAVORITE class tonight! Spinning with Dave Dude Bro! I'm so excited I might try to hug him. I miss having my gym buddies though. My social anxiety totally kicks in when I'm there alone. But, really thats something I HAVE to get over.

OH! So, I got this Job lead from my father... One of his buddies is the CEO of this company in Embarcadero Center, and my Dad had mentioned to him what was going on with my job, and the guy told my dad to have me get ahold of him, because he might be able to "find a spot for me". Very exciting. WEllllll, I had left him a voice mail on Tuesday and sent him an email with my resume. Well, he did respond this morning, but that he was busy and he will be in touch with me in the next few days and that he looks forward to chatting with me. So, I was nervous before about having to contact him... Well, now I think I might be more nervous. I really just like instant gratification. I have a serious fear of the unknown. But, still, I am very grateful. VERY.

Sarah and I talked and decided officially on not getting a tree this year. We are going to save the $40 or whatever this year. We really have nowhere to put it and hope to move very soon anyway. I'll hang some lights and put out some stuff. Maybe I'll find a little bush I can decorate.

I want Thanksgiving dinner again. Now.

*EDIT* Lisa is giving me her Nordstroms Dress form that I will be decorating as my Christmas tree! Soooooo fucking perfect.

Monday, December 1, 2008

I can't really help it if my tongue's all tied in knots.

I just listened to "Follow you Down" By the Gin Blossoms. and now I want to listen to more and I'm totally watching Empire Records tonight. Thank You Gin Blossoms for bringing me some nostalgia this afternoon.

Work blows. The work part isn't bad at all actually. But, I have this really strange feeling that people here hate me all of the sudden. Who knows. I honestly don't know what I could have done, but some people are just being short with me now and I hate that shit. If you have an issue with me, tell me. What if there's a misunderstanding? I don't do well with these situations. I just don't get people when the get upset and just expect that you know what's going on, or just blow you off regardless. I have a great deal of respect for the people that are left here with me. I can honestly say that I feel our managers made the proper decisions keeping this group here to finish everything out. And I can't think of what I would have said or done that would have upset any of them. I would just like to know, so I KNOW. that's all. I could very well just be losing my mind, and there's no issue. I just have a feeling. Hopefully it will blow over, or I'll just ignore it. Unfortunately, I only have 5 days left with this group... :(

hmmmm. What else? I had a very nice Thanksgiving and Thanksgiving weekend. Heck, the past week has been reallllly nice all together, really. I'm a happy girl minus my work worries. I went out only one night out of the entire four day weekend. But, it was a great night. I hate lines... But I ended up having a ton of fun. I really still love San Jose. But, I know I won't be moving back down there anytime soon.

I'm really hoping we can get into San Mateo early next year... cross your fingers for me. However, I really should wait to look into moving until after I find a job. Seeing, as my now most promising job lead is in downtown San Fransisco which would be quite a commute for me, (and I HATE commuting) as well as an all around lifestyle change I'm sure. But, we'll see. It could be really cool.

Hope everyone is as excited for Christmas time. It's my absolute favorite. I'm really trying to be excited, I'm not as much as I usually am though... but it's starting to seem like it might be a gloomy one. I'm just not ready for it. But, I want to try not to let that get me down. It's always a bittersweet time of year for me, so I like to try to keep it as happy as possible.

"I can't let it get me off
Or break up my train of thought
As far as I know, nothing's wrong
Until I hear it from you"

Monday, November 24, 2008


Mini SKIRTS, shorts, Over the Knee socks, Tights, and BOOTS!
That's all I care to wear these days. I have a problem. But, I'm kind of loving it.
I'll probably over do it, because I have the tendency to get excited and go with something and not know when to stop. But fuck it.
I'm loving getting dressed these days. I spent a good few hours fashion-showing it up in my bedroom last night planning out future outfits. And I'm pretty much set for a while. I have outfits planned for dayyyyys.
Yayyyy Fall!

Some Favorite looks (These were not created by me), from my favorite website:

"My fantasy has turned to madness, All my goodness has turned to badness."

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Nothing beats a good distraction.

Shit's going down at work, literally. In the sense that soon there will be no more work. boo. So, that's wearing on me. However, never under estimate the power of a good distraction. I'm in a super good mood today. I hope it will only get better.... hmmmm

Hope is everyone is fantastic. Or is able to go out and find a cute guy or new outfit to defer your bad thoughts for a bit. Always works for me!

Friday, November 14, 2008

Could it be that everything goes round by chance.

I fully intend to just the shit out of my bike allllll weekend. I haven't been doing nearly enough physical activity since Softball ended and I'm starting to NOTICE it! boo. It could just be PMS. But, that's usually my answer to all my complaints :) Don't judge me, it's totally fair.

Being at work right now is weird, and borders full on sucking, at some times :/
Today is actually a bit better despite one thing I'm really sad about.
A lot of faces that I loved seeing everyday are gone and I miss them, and I know it won't be long until all the rest of those face are gone too, along with mine! Ever since Softball, we've totally created this little family, that I LOVE. I just hope it lasts despite the fact that we will no longer be together 40 hours a week. These are some of the best people around.
Other than that, the actual work part is mostly easy for me right now... however, It's really just depressing to be killing something we've all worked so hard on while we've been working here, some longer than others. I do have hope that the company will be able to bounce back form this and do something with the products they do have. Then it might not feel like a total waste, even if I don't profit from it.
I've been so proud of what I did here and to be working for this company and had the opportunities I had. I know that I was good at my job, sometimes excellent, sorry to brag. But this was a perfect place for me. I've been lucky enough to have had some great leaders as well as coworkers.
I had lunch with an old boss yesterday, who I LOVED, who has agreed to be a reference for me. It was so nice to get see and talk to her again since her leaving was very abrupt and I never had the chance to even say goodbye. She was always very motivating, and talking to her yesterday helped me put some things into perspective. She told me how proud she was of me and how much she's seen me grow while I've been working at IMMI. Which made me feel really great. Because I see it too, so it's nice to know someone else has noticed. I've grown a tremendous amount in many different ways since working here. I've learned things and DONE things. I am more confident in myself, and more aware of what I am capable of achieving.
With that being said. My plan is to see how possible it will be to get my ass back into school for a short period of time, BUT long enough to get myself a degree or certification. So, wish me luck on deciding what the actual goal is and area of study will be, as I have few things still to sort out.

Oh, and P.S. Tonight was supposed to be the night I flew to New York for my Vacation!!! as if I'm not a bummer enough as it is. I still have my stacks of a few outfits I had picked out folded on the floor in my room ready to pack. HA! It's really sad. I had fun outfits all planned out, and I bought a new fucking coat. I canceled my flight Friday night after talking to Jeremy about what had happened. If I took the trip still, I would not have gotten to stay and work and get paid that extra money that now, that I am potentially jobless, I will need. It's just sad. I was excited to get out of here for a bit. I haven't gone away at all this year yet. I was excited to see Jeremy again, because it's a very rare occurrence at this point.

Alright enough of my bologna!
I hope everyone else is excellent. SUNSHINE PUPPIES and RAINBOWS!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

lost it.

Well, the past 2 days have been nothing short of interesting and potentially life changing depending on how I bounce back from it. I went to work Friday Morning prepared to hear some bad news, but I never expected the Bomb that dropped. The CEO informed the entire company during a staff meeting, that a good chunk of broadcasters had backed out of deals we had lined up, and that one huge company we've been doing business with for over a year now completely dropped out and ended the partnership we had with them. Basically no one can afford to use us right now, money in advertising is at an extreme low. After explaining that, he went on to say that the company planned to make some pretty drastic cut backs immediately, and that the amount of people employed with the company would go from 70+ people to only 20. He dismissed everyone from work for the day. He apologized and sent us off to meet with our department heads.

My group met with our bosses, and our department manager pulled out a piece of paper with what she wrote down to say because she was so nervous. You could tell she was genuinely scared. She told us that our ENTIRE department was being eliminated, and all 6 panels were completely being shut down. After that she met with everyone individually. They laid off almost 1/2 my department on Friday afternoon, they had checks and everything. There are 2 more groups left. I am on the last wave, and staying until December 8th. I felt like I was in an episode of the Twilight Zone, the receptionist had started putting boxes together for people to collect their belongings. It was insanity. I've never seen anything like it. Coworkers were going around with notepads to get numbers and emails in hopes that this is not the last we'll see of everyone, there were tears and most of them were from me. I LOVE my job. For so many reasons. I'm literally heart broken right now. I've lost one the most important things in my life. And, there's not a thing I or anyone I work with could have done about it. This was an actual direct affect of how bad the economy is.

So, today I applied for about 15 various jobs. And I'm terrified. I hate interviewing. I get so tense and nervous in normal everyday situations, interviews are just bad news for me. So, boo. But, I'm trying to remain positive. Fortunately I have family and friends here for me when things go down and I need some guidance. I came and shacked up with Scott and Emily last night since Sarah went to LA for the weekend and I didn't feel like being alone the whole weekend. And it's just a good excuse to get to hang out and have some good ol' Brandt Family fun, because it is the best kind of fun!

And now a bit of a tribute to my time spent with IMMI. Thank you to these AMAZING people and so many more for being you. I am so grateful to have had the opportunity to have worked with each and every one of you:

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Happy Happy Halloween.

I'm stoked for Halloween and the upcoming weekend.
Halloween at work is always a good time. I love seeing everyone dressed up in costumes. It gives you a fun little insight to another side of the people you work with everyday. I have a fun costume to wear to work, that is actually extremely simple, which is really nice. the zero effort I have to put into this costume makes it a favorite.

I have a almost official plan for Halloween evening. I had been rethinking going out at all after my LOVELY mistake last Saturday (skipping dinner followed by too many vodka cocktails). And since hearing some friends plans to cruise to Oakland and or Frisco for Halloween festivities. I started to plan a PJ night. No adventures for me this year... BUT! After some talk with a coworker, I found a perfect middle ground. Mansion gathering in Palo Alto is looking to be PLAN A. Close to home. I like it!

Costume for work: CHECK!
Costume for Halloween evening: iffffffy......
So, now to quickly finish plans for my evening costume. 3 days people!!! shit.

AND THEN! SATURDAY is the big day. Well, bigger day than most. Our Baby shower for Emily and Baby Bubba Brandt! We've been planning it for months, and I'm so excited to see how it plays out, and if I am any good at this kind of stuff. I really am ecstatic! I am so pleased with our plans and the way things have been working out over the past few conversations our little committee has had. I feel like we are really pulling together to make something really special happen.

p.s. I work with few morons and It's horribly horribly frustrating. I also think I'm just irritable somewhat in general lately, I've noticed. What gives? I'm not sure. Vacation will be good here soon... So, I apologize if I come off rude. I've had about 3 or 4 friends ask me if I'm mad at them for something... awesome. I don't really get mad if I can avoid it. I hate being mad. I have been quiet lately though. I'm just inside with my thoughts, nothing personal :)

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

We might as well be strangers in another town. We might as well be living in a different world.

Happy Wednesday. I feel very strongly that it should be Friday. I am having kind of an off week. I had a cold over the weekend, and it's still lingering... I'm a mess when I'm sick. I have allergies pretty bad, so I should be used to a constant runny nose but, nope. And I don't hold back shit when I blow. So, I'm scaring off pretty much anyone who encounters me at this point. On top of just being extra clutzy (spilling drink makeup and various other contents all over myself), I'm slower at everything I do right now. Needless to say, this shit needs to F - off.

A quick update on my life:
Still working. Trying to do more at work... I've been in this lull since my Olympic project ended. So, I'm looking forward to my project with Warner Brothers/CW next month.

The Sharks season has begun again, and I got the opportunity to go to the Columbus Blue Jackets game and sit in the 1st row directly on the glass behind the Blue Jackets. I humiliated myself on local (and national, I's sure) Television. Awesome. But, I had a blast watching the game way up close and personal while my coworkers talked shit to the Blue Jackets most of the evening.
I've learned the art of Beer Pong and about mastered it. haha, not really. I suck, but I usually do good when Travis is on my team, or when I play against him and he lets me cheat. I always have fun hanging out with that whole crew, I'm so glad to have been invited to join in events with all them. Sometimes, you just gotta get crazy, and we usually do. I Love new friends.

Jeremy was here a few weeks ago visiting from NEW YORK!!!! Which was beyond awesome. I haven't seen him in a year and a half or more, a the last time I saw him we were dating. And we haven't kept in touch much at all since he moved. I thought it was going to be slightly weird, but it totally wasn't. It just seemed like old times, which was nice. I hate losing touch with people, and I have with sooo many people. AND, a few weeks ago I found out that I had 13 Vacation days saved up, and I top off at 15 days accrued. and I accrue almost 7 hours a month. I haven't taken any vacation this year, soooo... I decided to go to New York for a week. I'm extremely nervous about flying by myself. But, it'll be good to force myself to get over the fear and do something on my own. Mind you, I won't be alone while in New York. But getting there is half the battle, so it's still a big deal to me. I'm excited to go in the fall and be there when I'm not trying to keep myself from getting hypothermia because I'm a baby when it comes to being cold. So, I'm excited or a November trip to check it out. I'm hoping to make enough money before I go to enjoy some more serious shopping. So far, I plan to go to the Adidas store, and the H&M's for sure to shop. But, I'd love to acquire some new Denim. Jeremy also mentioned that it will be necessary to check out Barney's, however I doubt I'll be purchasing there. It will be neat to see none the less. And, with that being said, I've hopped on the band wagon and started to list a few things here and there on eBay, that I've been meaning to get rid of for a while now anyway, to see if I can get a little extra spending cash for the trip. Check it out if you feel so inclined, Seller name: ChurchofKrust. It's really just a few items at a time. I get over it too easily to list very much at once. But, I have a bunch of stuff that should be showing up there in the next couple weeks. :)

Alright, back to work and drooling over hottie coworkers, because I am 12!

Monday, September 22, 2008

I've got an itch to scratch.

It's been an eventful weekend. Went out Friday in San Jose and Saturday in San Francisco with some coworkers. We got Stephanie to come out on Friday night and it was so fun! I love DANCING with the Stephie. I miss it :( It's really kind of the best.
I got the opportunity to attend my very first real Football Game. Saw the 49ers pretty much crush the Detroit Lions. It was awesome. The seats were insanely close... And before the I had only watched it on TV, so it was a bit surreal. I was a little taken aback by it all. I have a favorite on the team. Don't know his name or anything. He was fun to watch. #45.
I am officially pooped. BUT, I have a BIG GAME to play tonight. We always win 630 games. Probably because we can't drink before...
Come cheer us on!

I reallllllly really want to shop. I'm totally craving a good shopping adventure. But not like the regular shopping.I want to go shop on Haight and go to Braindrops! I want to go to H&M maybe and Urban in SF. OR to Berkley. Hell, maybe somewhere NEW? I think I should take a shopping "day off"...... hmmmmm. I guess I could wait for a weekend. But, that's less fun ;)

COLOR for my tattoo is this Saturday!!!! Who's coming??!!?
I think my coworker is going to come for the trip, which will be funnnn.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

This is why I don't commit to plans.
I have to say to NO to like 3 or 4 invites this week for various potentially AWESOME outings. boo.

ON a Positive note, My coworker just informed me the the PUMPKIN SPICE LATTES are back!
It's that time again. Yessssssssss. I will be at Starbucks today at 330 ordering my first of the Season and I cannot wait!

Tuesday, September 9, 2008


Okay, so. Do I suck it up and face my fear and see a damn regular dentist? Or pay the price and do the sedation dentistry so I can pretend it's not really happening? AND they can do ALOT of work in one sitting.
Fuck. I'm so cheap, and so afraid.
My teeth will just have to fall out.

Alright. I might be broke for a while...

Take me out. I'll smile a lot.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Today kinda sucks.

I'm really anxious and nervous today.
Too much going on in my head!!!! boo.

-baby shower plans.
-legitimately uncomfortable in the work place for the first time.
-my teeth are continually in pain, and I'm fearing the dentist, so I finally called a sedation dentist. But, am worried about the cost... and then having to find someone to have the time to come with me to get me home after.

it's just a passing phase, I know.
I can't wait for work to be over, then it will be time to focus on softball.
We are playing the only undefeated team in the league... we're screwed.
They are 6-0, we are 2-4. woohoo, so ready to get creeeeamed. like actually excited. because for an hour that's all that I will have to care about.

I would enjoy being at home with the SIMS2 expansion pack... ahem!

P.S. I would very much enjoy T.I., to have as my very own. yes please.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Me and Mariah go back like babies with pacifiers

I heard this song BLARING! literally in Betsey Johnson on Friday night, it was rad. I was the only person shopping at the time, and the associates were just rockin' out while they organized around the store. Well, needless to say. I fell in love. It's a really fun song. The beat is just fun to shake it to, especially when its up LOUD. Should be one of her singles if it isn't yet. I really love Mariah, and I LOVE this.

Can't get him outta my mind
Can't explain it but it's somethin 'bout him
Makin me hot
Like a motor revvin' over and over
It don't stop
He cruised beside me now
I'm flyin, drivin'

Through yellow lights
I'm ignorin' every sign of caution that they provide
Driver's Education 101
Slipped out of my mind
I need me a caddy
With some cruise control
No, no, no

I've been told so many sagas
He brings the drama, six baby mamas
But uh ooh
I can't resist him
Just want to kiss him
I need cruise control

Might need to go slow, I don't know
Why I ease up on the brake
Every time I see his face
I'm outta control, I... I don't know
How to stay up in my lane
Every day and night
He's cruisin' through my brain

Wherever I go he be cruisin'
Turn to the right ooh he so smooth with it
Deep down inside don't want to lose him
He already know I'm willin' to go
Gotta get on cruise control

Can't nobody, can't nobody tell me nothin'
When he comes in to view
Cause he's the flyest ting when he be cruisin'
On me avenue
Then da door open, de gals 'pon de block
They be hopin', to rob the clock me say no man
Step up step up bottle broken
Think I'm jokin'?

I've been told so many sagas
He brings the drama, six baby mamas
But uh ooh
I can't resist him
Just want to kiss him
I need cruise control

Might need to go slow, I don't know
Why I ease up on the brake
Every time I see his face
I'm outta control, I... I don't know
How to stay up in my lane
Every day and night
He's cruisin' through my brain

Wherever I go he be cruisin'
Turn to the right ooh he so smooth with it
Deep down inside don't want to lose him
He already know I'm willin' to go
Gotta get on cruise control

[Damian Marley]
You put your hand in cruise control
And you deny me if you want
And you will starve yourself of love
If you don't speed and break the law
You can't get no speeding ticket
On the highway to my heart
And it might be a rocky road
And you can exit if you want(Why you always..)
Look at life just like a pessimist
You already like a wife up in my premises
And right ya now you cruise control it is my nemesis
Just come again and stop and start just like a genesis

[Mariah Carey]
Might need to go slow, I don't know
Why I ease up on the brake
Every time I see his face
I'm outta control, I... I don't know
How to stay up in my lane
Every day and night
He's cruisin' through my brain

Wherever I go he be cruisin'
Turn to the right ooh he so smooth with it
Deep down inside don't want to lose him
He already know I'm willin' to go
Gotta get on cruise control

boo drama. Thanks Mariah.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Genuinely UPSET.

I want this more than anything right now.

The bathroom connects the 2 bedrooms. and then has a 1/2 bath as well.
It has a washer and dryer in unit.
2, yes 2 car garage!
And they allow cats.

Why was this not available 2 months ago?!?!?!?

I kind of want to go to the Open House in hopes that it's actually horrible...
Boo to my lease.

Chick flick appreciation. Not to be read by dudes.

I caught this movie on Lifetime last night... and I pretty much fell in love.
Watch it. Steph especially, because you usually appreciate this garbage with me. But, I have a feeling you've seen this already. It's a cute one.

"Three women who share a house are all about to turn 30. Tentative, mousy Micki has just had her fiancée, Jeff, break off their wedding plans because she's not passionate enough for him. Beautiful Tanya is pregnant and has lost her job as a sales clerk, but her boyfriend Tom isn't ready to marry and raise a child. Jasmine , who loves being single and dating bad boys, is tired of her family's pressure to marry. She proposes that all three get married, notify their families, then divorce. They go to Las Vegas to pursue the scheme. Micki hooks up with a dreamy cowboy, Cary, who instructs her in the art of passion. Tanya lures an older fellow, divorced businessman Oliver, planning to trick him into thinking that he's responsible for her pregnancy. Jasmine falls for Oliver's younger friend Matt who turns her on despite being a nice guy."

I Love John Corbett, I was happily surprised to see him! Sooooo dreamy...I wouldn't mind a cowboy.
I love all 3 characters in this movie. I could relate a little bit to each of them.
I miss the 90's
If and When I ever do get married, please believe I will have a 90's Limo, (because that's when they were still considered cool) and me and my bridesmaids will drink champagne and hang out of the sunroof all the way to the wedding.
What the hell, we should just rent one and do that this weekend.
Who's with me?

Included on the Soundtrack is "You might Think" By the Cars.
I've been rocking out to this pretty much all day.

You might think I'm crazy
To hang around with you
Maybe you think I'm lucky
To have something to do
But I think that you're wild
And inside me is some child

You might think I'm foolish
But baby it's untrue
You might think I'm crazy
All I want is you

You might think it's hysterical
But I know when you're weak
You think you're in the movies
And everything's so deep
But I think that you're wild
When you flash that fragile smile

You might think it's foolish
What you put me through
You might think I'm crazy
All I want is you

And it is hard, so hard to take
There's no escape, without a scrape
But you kept it going 'til the sun fell down
You kept it going

You might think I'm delirious
The way I run you down
But somewhere, sometimes
When you're curious
I'll be back around
And I think that you're wild
And so-o uniquely styled

You might think it's foolish
This chancy rendezvous
You might think I'm crazy
But all I want is you
All I want is you
All I want is you

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Partially by request from Emily.

I'm boring. haha!
Maybe not so much. But I'm sure no one cares to hear about the goings on in my life, and I have been somewhat busy.
Softball season is in full swing, and its awesome. I had to miss one practice and I was pretty sad about it :/
It's so much fun, even though I suck quite a lot. Last Monday was our first Victory 14-2!!! Quite a big victory. All the games we've lost we've been sooo close to winning. Last night we played an awesome game, but lost 18-15 to a team of dudes and their moms, which is totally awesome. Anyway, I was surprised at the turnout of spectators last night! My dad showed up! and it was a late game! I thought he went to bed at like 8. I was stoked to see him there. Scott and Emily came again, along with honorary fan Sarah, who has only missed one game, so she has her own team hat! Then Danny and Mattie showed up. It was a rad feeling to have my crew there rooting for our team. Next week's game is another early game 6:30, and there is talk of possibly bbqing after the game at the park... This will be one NOT to miss!

Other than Softball, my workload is slowly getting smaller for the time being with the Olympics getting ready to wrap. It will be nice to relax a little bit after this project, but hopefully not for too long. I've loved this project, even though its been intense most of the time. I love feeling like I am doing something worthwhile here, and I enjoy feeling the appreciation for it.

Sarah and I have just about finished our place almost... It's quite cute right now. We still have less space and oddly more stuff. But it's come together. I got away with not needing to buy one piece of new furniture! I don't even have a dresser in my bedroom... I tried something a little unconventional and I'm kinda diggin it. My room is officially my sanctuary. I'm really happy with how its laid out and set up. Although a queen size bed frame would complete it.
Because my queen mattress tends to get a little crazy on the full frame. haha!

Things are mostly good. I have been a little hazy and in a dream like state for the past week, but I think I'm coming back to reality... I'm not sure if it was related to the fact that I had drank more nights in a week than I am used to, or if it was related to other things... I guess time will tell.

I'm dying inside of excitement for my niece or nephew to develop further and be born.... fuuuuuuuuuck! Emily showed me things she has purchased for baby Brandt, and I'm so stoked the kid has possessions officially. It's happening! Baby, come meet meeeeeee! Or start kicking like crazy so, I can feel it! that will hold me over once it starts happening. Maybe. :)

My Sister SARAH's 24th Birthday is on Thursday!!! So, now it's time to prepare for a good long weekend of celebrating my Sari-cakers! Hit us up, we are doing it up RIGHT! Thursday, Friday, Saturday!!!! and hell, maybe we'll find something to do Sunday...

Here is some Ryan Lochte for your face! <333 I would marry this fool in a millionth of a second. Homeboy's got it going on. Why do I always like the young ones....?

I'm pretty much heartbroken that Swimming is over. Someone send me a swimmer to ease the pain.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

I LOVE a good Thursday.

And this will be one of those GOOD Thursdays.

Despite the madness at work, which I'm actually totally into, I'm stoked. Every once in a while, I really enjoy this fast paced stuff where everything is just happening and changing. One thing after the next. Who needs to slow down? Keeps me on my toes. Plus, I'm in need of distractions to keep my mind off other things, so it woks out well right now. I'll rest after I can say I accomplished something (assuming I can, haha!)

After what looks to be yet another long, hectic, but FUN day of work, I have Softball practice. Easily one of my favorite things going on right now. I'm really happy I joined the team. I'm getting to know people in the company that I would not usually encounter. I love the whole being a part of a "team" thing. I think after this is over I might consider joining another team outside of work. I'm really having that much fun, and we haven't even had a game yet. That being said. Anyone who reads this and wants to come to a game, Please do!!!! Our first is Monday night. Contact me for info. We don't have our uniforms yet (which I designed!! :D) but we should have them by our 2nd game. I'm very proud.

I think some of us our going to the batting cages after practice too. I could use A LOT of batting practice, among other things....

AND THEN! TONIGHT.... Get ready for it....
A couple of the girls from work invited me to join them to see THE DARK KNIGHT tonight at midnight! I'm dying... I LOVE Christian Bale. And am also a Heath fan, so this extremely exciting. Batman Begins is easily one of my favorite movies, so I'm really anxious to see this one, of course.

Friday, July 11, 2008


I went to our company softball teams first official practice yesterday. I was a lot of fun. I'm way too excited about it all. However, I suck, and not just a little either.
Anyhow, I was talking to one of the guys from work and in conversation he asked he asked how far apart my sister and I were in age, and I answered 2 years. He then asked how old she was, and I answered that she will be 24. He then assumed I was 22. which was nice, but I laughed and admitted that I was in fact 26. This was the first time I had to say I was 26. I don't know why, but it fully freaked me out, right there. Like I couldn't look at him because I was scared of a reaction. there may have not been one. But, I couldn't risk it.
I don't like that this age things worries me so much. I don't really even get why it does. But, it really does!
Now, I don't feel, by any means, old.
But, to me 26 sounds like it's getting up there. I don't feel 26. I haven't done enough to be 26. It just sounds old. I should have so much more of my shit together.
I feel 22, maybe.

That's my rant.
I hate you, 26.

Thursday, June 26, 2008


Paging MATERSON...

Raymond Materson. Or just plain Materson will do. Please contact me asap.


Thursday, June 12, 2008


Thank you for the smile today.

Simple things like this bring me such joy...

Monday, June 9, 2008

The Auntie Krust.

Accepted forms:
The Anti-Krust (like Anti Christ.)
Aunt Krust.
Auntie Kristina.

The word is odd after looking at it saying and spelling it a few times.

This is big time.
I was talking to my aunt on the phone last week and she said "Being an aunt is one of the best things you get to be, I so know the excitement you have right now"
I Love you BABY BRANDT. I'm going to smother you with Love and affection and spoil the shit out of you.

I get to be an Aunt.

I'm to see fetus photo <3

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

In the market...

I'm getting ready to purchase a laptop.
Actually I have been ready for close to a month.
I've built a few, or picked out others and just when I've made the decision and it's time to pull the trigger, I freeze.
It's such a large sum of money to spend in one purchase.
If I only I hadn't fucked myself over and was able finance it... I'd be more at ease.
shiiiiit. I hate expensive purchases. It took me MONTHS to finally buy my car in 2005.
I;m just worried. I'm going to do it, and then something better that I could afford will come out... which is exactly what happened when I bought my car. The New GTI's came out and I fell in love, but had just purchased my TC. eh.
What the hell?

Here I go.

I need reassurance.
And advice on how NOT to screw this thing up.
Send me links to inexpensive external hard drives and nice 15.4" laptop cases.

Wish me luck.

Monday, June 2, 2008


Was excellent.
For many reasons.
I got that feeling back in my stomach that I had missed so much...

I met these amazing creatures.
(Most photos are blurry, because I prefer the lighting without the flash, and I wanted to try to disturb the animals as little as possible.)

And The Jellyfish, which are rad! The colors and the lights...
And in the exhibit they were playing THIS song.

"Do you remember
When we met
That's the day I knew you were my pick"

agh! I love it.

And had a blast. I have since learned many interesting facts about Octopuses. (yes, Octopuses is an acceptable plural form of Octopus.) They are my favorite right now. This guy in particular. He has 7 arms, and 1 nub....

He was totally dancing around for us and putting on a show. I took a ton of pictures.

I would love to have a pet Octopus. But they have very short life spans and are super smart and excellent escape artists. and as much as I love cuddling, I don't want to wake up with one in my bed, unexpectedly.
Jason took me to the Chart House for Dinner, and it was the BEST! After seeing Salmon swim around, I totally ordered Salmon for Dinner... As well as a Calamari Appetizer.. I'm, evil. but, It's sooooo good. And Dessert was the winner. Molten chocolate Lava cake, sprinkled with Heath Bar... I want to go back NOW.

Back to work, now...
A least I have cheesecake and TEA!
I'm a happy, happy Krust.

Thursday, May 29, 2008


It feels like a FRIDAY!!!
My boss is fully aware. But, tomorrow I am taking a Comp day, and going to the Monterey Bay Aquarium!!!! I have ton of time saved up, because I barely ever take time off work.
I can't wait to see the Giant Octopus! Among other things... Sea Horses, Starfish, Otters, Jellyfish, and SHARKS! The list could go on...

Look at him!!! I kinda LOVE Octopuses wayyy too much for looking the way they do...
I can't wait!!!

Possibly some dancing tonight...? At a The Cure show, after party... Fun. I Love Blank Thursdays, I miss them.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

I see it coming but I can't defend...

Life is sweet.
My finances are in order and I feel excellent about it. Thanks to my AMAZING Sister-in-law Emily and her helpful skills.

I finally got my bike! Thanks to Scotty who drove me to San Jo to pick it up. He and I have been riding a lot since the weekend. We have our route set now. It's a 10 mile ride and it goes basically to one end of San Mateo and then back to the other, we go all along the water and underneath the San Mateo bridge even. On the trail there are these feral cats that hang out by the rocks near the water. They are way skiddish and won't come near you, but super cute. We brought some dry cat food and fed them as we went along on Monday. I can't wait to go for a ride after work today!!!!! Even though my ass is about a raw as can be right now, I don't even care.
I Love my bike!

I got to go see the Birthday Massacre last Friday night, thanks to Jason. There were a lot of teenagers, but it was still an awesome show. I saw Mindless Self Indulgence for the first time, and it was awfully entertaining. They are great live. I Love all the pretty girls,

and this pretty boy, a bit too:

None of these are pictures from the show I went to. I've been lacking in my photo taking lately :/

I'm wearing a heather grey shirt again, today and it is still all the same hue. Not darker grey in certain areas... Thanks to a little help from a friend. Very few will understand this. I'm ecstatic that it is finally taken care of, after years of embarrassment and limited shirt color choices. I feel like a new woman! Which I know sounds ridiculous, but it's true.

And, I'm off to see Indiana Jones after a bike ride tonight. Catch y'all later...

Kisses for the COCO!

Thursday, May 15, 2008


I have an appointment to start my back piece on June 22.
I am getting all the pictures together, and I'm having the worst time finding pictures of one of the dolls I had, that want in it. Her name was Julie, and Worlds of Wonder made her. They have since gone bankrupt, so of course, no website. :(
Boo, I want a picture of her brand new, or in really good condition. I could take a picture of mine today, but she is tore up. She is literally falling apart, her head could go at any moment :/
And so The hunt goes on...

If anyone had her and didn't destroy her, take some pictures for me.

It's getting HOT in herrrrre.

Sarah made me HELLLLLLAA Good salad for dinner last night. She's the bestest!
She also brought home Corona! It was a good night.
After eating, Steph, Sarah and I made a spontaneous trip to the mall. Because our damn houses don't have air conditioning, BUT the mall does!
I bought my PURPLE Jeans!!!!
Emily had told me about them. and I finally got them. I'm so happy!

I don't like them in the photo with sandals, but I swear in person they are adorable, and are going to be hot with heelsa and super fun with flats.

It's supposed to be 94 degrees today!!!
Thank god I'm off work early. I will be out enjoying the SUN!
I really want a Pina Colada, or Margarita, or hell even a Corona!

I'm supper happy today! EMILY and LISA are home!
I missed them too much. I nearly teared up when Em called me last night while heading home from the airport. No joke.

"SINISTER is home."

Monday, May 5, 2008

an eventful Sunday.

So, the highlight of my Sunday, would have to be the fact that I MET the man who designed the Snake from the INDIANA JONES ride in Disneyland. His Job title is Imagineer, and he had his scaled down model of the snake and the plans showing how he made the thing. It was fucking sick. I was super stoked, because Indiana Jones is my favorite ride at Disneyland.

We went to the Maker Faire:
Build, CRAFT, hack, play, MAKE.
Arts • Crafts • Engineering • Food • Green • Music • Science • Technology
Maker Faire is a two-day, family-friendly event that celebrates the Do-It-Yourself (DIY) mindset. It’s for creative, resourceful people of all ages and backgrounds who like to tinker and love to make things.
We went last year, too. But this year there was so much more, including the Disney section. They had all kinds of stuff. It's like the Exploritorium and a mini interactive Discovery channel all set up as a playground for people to come check out. I highly recommend checking it out next time it's near you!

We discovered a ton of rad things we want to do and go learn to do! I'm extremely excited. We even tested some of our findings later that night, while trying not to get too sucked into the intensity of The Sharks game... :/
That was rough.

I Love you, Sharkies, Can't wait for next season!

Friday, May 2, 2008

Hellllllo FRIDAY!

I get to see NICHOLAS! tonight. Yes, Nick Swardson. I Love him. I may even wear the NICK belt buckle I have... it's the same one he has!!! I'm awesome. I can't wait.

I may have interesting work news. But, I shouldn't elaborate until it's final. But, I'm kinda excited, but in a sinister way... : /

I am serious need of chocolate right now or something sweet, period. I may make a Starbucks run. Not that I need any more caffeine today. But, a Caramel Macchiato sounds good.

I really want Hostess powdered mini doughnuts. Sooooo good.

I started a Facebook, but haven't taken enough time to figure the website out and kind of feel like an old person trying to use the internet... it's all quite confusing to me still. But, it looks kinda fun...

ALSO.... I'm in the market for a New Laptop. A PC. SO, I have been building various models, and I'm debating between HP and Dell. The HP is cheaper, but I have kinda always, only had Dell's, so I feel more comfortable with them. The only reason I need a new one is because mine is pretty old and I've junked it up big time at this point. I need something FAST with a GLOSSY monitor, to play the SIMS on...
I'd be happy. Very happy. Any suggestions?

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Something I SUCK at.

1 the process of maintaining or preserving someone or something, or the state of being maintained
• the process of keeping something in good condition

Credit/ Bills
I am in debt a mere $2000 dollars or so. Something that could easily be paid off in about 3 months or less even. Easily. But, for some reason, I only pay for something when its in my face. Like when the cable goes out because I didn't pay the bill, or my phone. I mean, really my phone and cable isn't cut off off frequently because I don't pay until it is. That's not the case entirely. BUT, it has gotten to that a few times. It hasn't happened many times, but still, that should never happen to a 25 year old with a good job, and steady income. I've let things got into collections... And some of it is because I didn't always make good money, but still. I don't know. I was talking to my Sister in Law Emily about it, and there is no logic. I have no excuse. I'm just irresponsible. I just want to have the $2000 to pay it all off at once. I need a financial advisor to tell me where the money needs to go when I get a paycheck, and sit down and write the checks right then or call and make the measly monthly payments that need to be made. I am awful with money. I just want it for MEEEE when I get it. BLAH... I'm retarded and need to be trained. I really want to be good. I want good credit. I want to buy a house someday...

My poor car. I am so lucky to have and it's in need of an oil change and possibly brakes it's starting to sound like. And again, I've probably needed them for a month or more and I haven't gone to do shit about it. I've had oil changes, I just always wait what's probably way too long out of pure laziness. I don't deserve a nice car. It's pretty clear...

I've only been in 2 real ones. But, I think I sucked at them. I think I'm alright in the beginning and then I have all these hopes and ideas of what I'm going to do and how great it will be. But, I get lucky and get a good dude, and just sit there and don't do jack, I feel like. Like I just wait until it's convenient for something to be done, and I don't speak up enough about ho I feel or what I want and want to do. I just go with the flow and expect everything to just work itself out. And, for the most part that works out great! Because, honestly I am very easy going, and I am usually happy doing nothing as long as I'm with the person or people I want to be with at the time. I don't know how to explain myself for shit. This probably sounds like jibberish. I just feel like I've cheated myself and past relationships because I'm so closed off. And I know that it's essential in a relationship to communicate everything or it will fail. And knowing that I don't get WHY, I can't just speak he fuck up sometimes. I feel I've gotten better. But, I know there is A LOT of room for improvement.

Other areas include: Housework, and working out.

I just really, really got to get my act together.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

New Works Festival

I get to go to the ballet tonight and, I'm excited. It's the last of our Season tickets. which is kind of sad. But, I'm so happy my Aunt got them and took us this season. I love watching, but it makes me wish I stuck with it as a kid and could still do it now... oh well, I'll have to stick with observation, I guess.