obsession.

Mini SKIRTS, shorts, Over the Knee socks, Tights, and BOOTS!
That's all I care to wear these days. I have a problem. But, I'm kind of loving it.
I'll probably over do it, because I have the tendency to get excited and go with something and not know when to stop. But fuck it.
I'm loving getting dressed these days. I spent a good few hours fashion-showing it up in my bedroom last night planning out future outfits. And I'm pretty much set for a while. I have outfits planned for dayyyyys.
Yayyyy Fall!

Some Favorite looks (These were not created by me), from my favorite website:

"My fantasy has turned to madness, All my goodness has turned to badness."

Nothing beats a good distraction.

Shit's going down at work, literally. In the sense that soon there will be no more work. boo. So, that's wearing on me. However, never under estimate the power of a good distraction. I'm in a super good mood today. I hope it will only get better.... hmmmm


Hope is everyone is fantastic. Or is able to go out and find a cute guy or new outfit to defer your bad thoughts for a bit. Always works for me!

Could it be that everything goes round by chance.

I fully intend to just the shit out of my bike allllll weekend. I haven't been doing nearly enough physical activity since Softball ended and I'm starting to NOTICE it! boo. It could just be PMS. But, that's usually my answer to all my complaints :) Don't judge me, it's totally fair.

Being at work right now is weird, and borders full on sucking, at some times :/
Today is actually a bit better despite one thing I'm really sad about.
A lot of faces that I loved seeing everyday are gone and I miss them, and I know it won't be long until all the rest of those face are gone too, along with mine! Ever since Softball, we've totally created this little family, that I LOVE. I just hope it lasts despite the fact that we will no longer be together 40 hours a week. These are some of the best people around.
Other than that, the actual work part is mostly easy for me right now... however, It's really just depressing to be killing something we've all worked so hard on while we've been working here, some longer than others. I do have hope that the company will be able to bounce back form this and do something with the products they do have. Then it might not feel like a total waste, even if I don't profit from it.
I've been so proud of what I did here and to be working for this company and had the opportunities I had. I know that I was good at my job, sometimes excellent, sorry to brag. But this was a perfect place for me. I've been lucky enough to have had some great leaders as well as coworkers.
I had lunch with an old boss yesterday, who I LOVED, who has agreed to be a reference for me. It was so nice to get see and talk to her again since her leaving was very abrupt and I never had the chance to even say goodbye. She was always very motivating, and talking to her yesterday helped me put some things into perspective. She told me how proud she was of me and how much she's seen me grow while I've been working at IMMI. Which made me feel really great. Because I see it too, so it's nice to know someone else has noticed. I've grown a tremendous amount in many different ways since working here. I've learned things and DONE things. I am more confident in myself, and more aware of what I am capable of achieving.
With that being said. My plan is to see how possible it will be to get my ass back into school for a short period of time, BUT long enough to get myself a degree or certification. So, wish me luck on deciding what the actual goal is and area of study will be, as I have few things still to sort out.



Oh, and P.S. Tonight was supposed to be the night I flew to New York for my Vacation!!! as if I'm not a bummer enough as it is. I still have my stacks of a few outfits I had picked out folded on the floor in my room ready to pack. HA! It's really sad. I had fun outfits all planned out, and I bought a new fucking coat. I canceled my flight Friday night after talking to Jeremy about what had happened. If I took the trip still, I would not have gotten to stay and work and get paid that extra money that now, that I am potentially jobless, I will need. It's just sad. I was excited to get out of here for a bit. I haven't gone away at all this year yet. I was excited to see Jeremy again, because it's a very rare occurrence at this point.


Alright enough of my bologna!
I hope everyone else is excellent. SUNSHINE PUPPIES and RAINBOWS!

lost it.

Well, the past 2 days have been nothing short of interesting and potentially life changing depending on how I bounce back from it. I went to work Friday Morning prepared to hear some bad news, but I never expected the Bomb that dropped. The CEO informed the entire company during a staff meeting, that a good chunk of broadcasters had backed out of deals we had lined up, and that one huge company we've been doing business with for over a year now completely dropped out and ended the partnership we had with them. Basically no one can afford to use us right now, money in advertising is at an extreme low. After explaining that, he went on to say that the company planned to make some pretty drastic cut backs immediately, and that the amount of people employed with the company would go from 70+ people to only 20. He dismissed everyone from work for the day. He apologized and sent us off to meet with our department heads.

My group met with our bosses, and our department manager pulled out a piece of paper with what she wrote down to say because she was so nervous. You could tell she was genuinely scared. She told us that our ENTIRE department was being eliminated, and all 6 panels were completely being shut down. After that she met with everyone individually. They laid off almost 1/2 my department on Friday afternoon, they had checks and everything. There are 2 more groups left. I am on the last wave, and staying until December 8th. I felt like I was in an episode of the Twilight Zone, the receptionist had started putting boxes together for people to collect their belongings. It was insanity. I've never seen anything like it. Coworkers were going around with notepads to get numbers and emails in hopes that this is not the last we'll see of everyone, there were tears and most of them were from me. I LOVE my job. For so many reasons. I'm literally heart broken right now. I've lost one the most important things in my life. And, there's not a thing I or anyone I work with could have done about it. This was an actual direct affect of how bad the economy is.

So, today I applied for about 15 various jobs. And I'm terrified. I hate interviewing. I get so tense and nervous in normal everyday situations, interviews are just bad news for me. So, boo. But, I'm trying to remain positive. Fortunately I have family and friends here for me when things go down and I need some guidance. I came and shacked up with Scott and Emily last night since Sarah went to LA for the weekend and I didn't feel like being alone the whole weekend. And it's just a good excuse to get to hang out and have some good ol' Brandt Family fun, because it is the best kind of fun!

And now a bit of a tribute to my time spent with IMMI. Thank you to these AMAZING people and so many more for being you. I am so grateful to have had the opportunity to have worked with each and every one of you:

Happy Happy Halloween.

I'm stoked for Halloween and the upcoming weekend.
Halloween at work is always a good time. I love seeing everyone dressed up in costumes. It gives you a fun little insight to another side of the people you work with everyday. I have a fun costume to wear to work, that is actually extremely simple, which is really nice. the zero effort I have to put into this costume makes it a favorite.

I have a almost official plan for Halloween evening. I had been rethinking going out at all after my LOVELY mistake last Saturday (skipping dinner followed by too many vodka cocktails). And since hearing some friends plans to cruise to Oakland and or Frisco for Halloween festivities. I started to plan a PJ night. No adventures for me this year... BUT! After some talk with a coworker, I found a perfect middle ground. Mansion gathering in Palo Alto is looking to be PLAN A. Close to home. I like it!

Costume for work: CHECK!
Costume for Halloween evening: iffffffy......
So, now to quickly finish plans for my evening costume. 3 days people!!! shit.

AND THEN! SATURDAY is the big day. Well, bigger day than most. Our Baby shower for Emily and Baby Bubba Brandt! We've been planning it for months, and I'm so excited to see how it plays out, and if I am any good at this kind of stuff. I really am ecstatic! I am so pleased with our plans and the way things have been working out over the past few conversations our little committee has had. I feel like we are really pulling together to make something really special happen.


p.s. I work with few morons and It's horribly horribly frustrating. I also think I'm just irritable somewhat in general lately, I've noticed. What gives? I'm not sure. Vacation will be good here soon... So, I apologize if I come off rude. I've had about 3 or 4 friends ask me if I'm mad at them for something... awesome. I don't really get mad if I can avoid it. I hate being mad. I have been quiet lately though. I'm just inside with my thoughts, nothing personal :)

We might as well be strangers in another town. We might as well be living in a different world.

Happy Wednesday. I feel very strongly that it should be Friday. I am having kind of an off week. I had a cold over the weekend, and it's still lingering... I'm a mess when I'm sick. I have allergies pretty bad, so I should be used to a constant runny nose but, nope. And I don't hold back shit when I blow. So, I'm scaring off pretty much anyone who encounters me at this point. On top of just being extra clutzy (spilling drink makeup and various other contents all over myself), I'm slower at everything I do right now. Needless to say, this shit needs to F - off.

A quick update on my life:
Still working. Trying to do more at work... I've been in this lull since my Olympic project ended. So, I'm looking forward to my project with Warner Brothers/CW next month.

The Sharks season has begun again, and I got the opportunity to go to the Columbus Blue Jackets game and sit in the 1st row directly on the glass behind the Blue Jackets. I humiliated myself on local (and national, I's sure) Television. Awesome. But, I had a blast watching the game way up close and personal while my coworkers talked shit to the Blue Jackets most of the evening.
I've learned the art of Beer Pong and about mastered it. haha, not really. I suck, but I usually do good when Travis is on my team, or when I play against him and he lets me cheat. I always have fun hanging out with that whole crew, I'm so glad to have been invited to join in events with all them. Sometimes, you just gotta get crazy, and we usually do. I Love new friends.

Jeremy was here a few weeks ago visiting from NEW YORK!!!! Which was beyond awesome. I haven't seen him in a year and a half or more, a the last time I saw him we were dating. And we haven't kept in touch much at all since he moved. I thought it was going to be slightly weird, but it totally wasn't. It just seemed like old times, which was nice. I hate losing touch with people, and I have with sooo many people. AND, a few weeks ago I found out that I had 13 Vacation days saved up, and I top off at 15 days accrued. and I accrue almost 7 hours a month. I haven't taken any vacation this year, soooo... I decided to go to New York for a week. I'm extremely nervous about flying by myself. But, it'll be good to force myself to get over the fear and do something on my own. Mind you, I won't be alone while in New York. But getting there is half the battle, so it's still a big deal to me. I'm excited to go in the fall and be there when I'm not trying to keep myself from getting hypothermia because I'm a baby when it comes to being cold. So, I'm excited or a November trip to check it out. I'm hoping to make enough money before I go to enjoy some more serious shopping. So far, I plan to go to the Adidas store, and the H&M's for sure to shop. But, I'd love to acquire some new Denim. Jeremy also mentioned that it will be necessary to check out Barney's, however I doubt I'll be purchasing there. It will be neat to see none the less. And, with that being said, I've hopped on the band wagon and started to list a few things here and there on eBay, that I've been meaning to get rid of for a while now anyway, to see if I can get a little extra spending cash for the trip. Check it out if you feel so inclined, Seller name: ChurchofKrust. It's really just a few items at a time. I get over it too easily to list very much at once. But, I have a bunch of stuff that should be showing up there in the next couple weeks. :)

Alright, back to work and drooling over hottie coworkers, because I am 12!

I've got an itch to scratch.

It's been an eventful weekend. Went out Friday in San Jose and Saturday in San Francisco with some coworkers. We got Stephanie to come out on Friday night and it was so fun! I love DANCING with the Stephie. I miss it :( It's really kind of the best.
I got the opportunity to attend my very first real Football Game. Saw the 49ers pretty much crush the Detroit Lions. It was awesome. The seats were insanely close... And before the I had only watched it on TV, so it was a bit surreal. I was a little taken aback by it all. I have a favorite on the team. Don't know his name or anything. He was fun to watch. #45.
I am officially pooped. BUT, I have a BIG GAME to play tonight. We always win 630 games. Probably because we can't drink before...
Come cheer us on!


I reallllllly really want to shop. I'm totally craving a good shopping adventure. But not like the regular shopping.I want to go shop on Haight and go to Braindrops! I want to go to H&M maybe and Urban in SF. OR to Berkley. Hell, maybe somewhere NEW? I think I should take a shopping "day off"...... hmmmmm. I guess I could wait for a weekend. But, that's less fun ;)

COLOR for my tattoo is this Saturday!!!! Who's coming??!!?
I think my coworker is going to come for the trip, which will be funnnn.

This is why I don't commit to plans.
I have to say to NO to like 3 or 4 invites this week for various potentially AWESOME outings. boo.



ON a Positive note, My coworker just informed me the the PUMPKIN SPICE LATTES are back!
It's that time again. Yessssssssss. I will be at Starbucks today at 330 ordering my first of the Season and I cannot wait!

Teeeeef.

Okay, so. Do I suck it up and face my fear and see a damn regular dentist? Or pay the price and do the sedation dentistry so I can pretend it's not really happening? AND they can do ALOT of work in one sitting.
Fuck. I'm so cheap, and so afraid.
My teeth will just have to fall out.

Alright. I might be broke for a while...

Take me out. I'll smile a lot.

Today kinda sucks.

I'm really anxious and nervous today.
Too much going on in my head!!!! boo.

-baby shower plans.
-legitimately uncomfortable in the work place for the first time.
-my teeth are continually in pain, and I'm fearing the dentist, so I finally called a sedation dentist. But, am worried about the cost... and then having to find someone to have the time to come with me to get me home after.

it's just a passing phase, I know.
I can't wait for work to be over, then it will be time to focus on softball.
We are playing the only undefeated team in the league... we're screwed.
They are 6-0, we are 2-4. woohoo, so ready to get creeeeamed. like actually excited. because for an hour that's all that I will have to care about.

I would enjoy being at home with the SIMS2 expansion pack... ahem!


P.S. I would very much enjoy T.I., to have as my very own. yes please.